Travelling with my Son?

So Tim and I have decided to leave Ryker’s ashes at home, when we go on holiday to Queensland. It’s not that we don’t want to take Ryker it’s that I think we need a holiday to ourselves to reconnect with one another. We need to figure out how our relationship works now, and not […]

1st Birthday Coming Up

Ryker your 1st birthday is coming up, and I still haven’t decided what we are going to do, i keep changing my mind. Its a big occasion, but its also a mournful occasion. And just to think, this time last year I was waiting impatiently for you my little guy to make an entrance into […]

Everyone Else Celebrates

A new year. Really, just another year. Nothing new, same shit, different day. I tried to be positive, I tried to be happy that 2015 is over, and I am, I’m just not glad that 2016 has started. I thought i would, i don’t know, feel so e kind of relief that 2015 is over, […]

Kiss 2015 Goodbye

As 2015 comes to the end, I can’t say I’m not glad to see the backside of this horribly, disastrous year. I’ve been through so much heart ache this year that if I could forget this year I would. So bring on 2016, because it literally could not get any worse than this year. I’ve […]

A Goodnight Kiss

Just a sweet kiss goodnight, just like every night. This tiny act has become an affectionate routine, just before bed I pick you up, dust you off and let my lips rest on your cold, smooth surface. You are surround by little memories that we have of you, but there is no warmth to be […]