Life doesn’t stop, it seems to move faster than ever before. I don’t have time to stop for anything, because if I do i fear I will sizzle out. I don’t have time to figure anything out, I somehow don’t even have time to think. And I am ok with this. I don’t have time to dwell on the “what could have beens”, to dwell on my future.
Ryker is still mentioned everyday, if not aloud, I still think of him, or find something that reminds me of my precious baby and I don’t break down, I smile and think of how he is and will always be my boy. I can even now manage to ignore everyone who says somethings negative to me about him.
Life has truly moved forward, and I no longer cry over things I cannot control.