In 16 days Ryker has been gone for 10 months, 10 whole months. And when I think about it in some ways I’ve gone backwards. There was a period of time where I thought I was moving forward really well. But then now I’m stuck in this limbo, I’m not moving forward, but I’m not moving back. Telling people that Ryker was stillborn is getting easier, but telling people his story is getting harder.