I thought I would play catch up with the photographic healing journey for Mothers through May 2015.
Day 1 (Precious) The Precious thing is not the box. It’s what’s inside the box. The love of my life, the most precious treasure. My son.
Day 2 (Grateful) I am not only grateful for this day, I am grateful for yesterday and tomorrow. I am grateful that I am still alive because the amount of times I’ve wished I wasn’t is enough to drive anyone crazy
Day 3 (My Heart) My Heart is many things; Devastated,
Broken and yet it is also;
Day 4 (Inspiration) I am very much inspired by my parents. Honesty and hard work both is policy for them. They have faced so many challenges in their life and yet They have given me and my siblings everything which we wanted and never made us feel alone. They are who support me in every good or bad situation.I have learnt so many things from them like how to achieve your goal step by step, keep sacrificing for others happiness and keep learning through your life. My mum flew across the country when Ryker passed and my dad had to sacrifice coming to see him to look after my younger siblings. They are my inspiration.
Day 5 (Love) Love is this picture to perfection. I have my loving partner Tim who I could not make it with out. He will continue to tell people I am too strong and yet he seems to miss that I am only strong because of him. I love this crazy, sometimes stupid, amazing fisherman. He brightens up the darkest of days and knows how to lift me up when I am down. We fight and argue but at the end of the day what doesn’t tear you apart brings you closer together. And then I have my baby boy Ryker Jon that is eternal love. Nothing in the world could change the love I have for my son. Each day that passes I manage to find more love for him and I will continue to do so until I am incapable of love.
“Imagine a love so strong it made saying hello and goodbye in the same day worth all the pain.”
Day 6 (Balance) Balance, my balance in life has gone out the door. Plain and simple really. I’m trying to get it back, but it’s harder than I thought it would be.
Day 7 (Hope) “What I need is a dandelion in the spring. The bright yellow that means rebirth instead of destruction. The promise that life can go on, no matter how bad our losses. That it can be good again.” That is my hope.
Day 8 (Music) When my emotions are wild, or my head is tired but my eyes won’t close. When I think of Ryker this is that song. It craddles my heart whenever I need it the most. When I’m happy, sad, lonely or even depressed this song can comfort and soothe me when others cannot. It speaks to my heart and touches it deeply that I am forever listening no matter the day or how I feel. I’ve dubbed this Ryker’s Tune and it will forever be known as
Day 9 (Self Care) Self care can be many things; eating well, exercising, drinking plenty of water, but my self care is making time for me and to relax. To forget the world for a few hours and pamper myself. Make my body happy with what it is, taking a bath while reading a book is self care in that it’s my pamper time.
Day 10 (Mother) I am a mother, just as much as you are a mother.
Day 11 (Creativity) Being a chef my creative side comes out when I’m with food, so being away from the work place my creativity has dwindled a little.
Day 12 (Support) Support from my friends and family is one of the biggest things I have relied on for the past 4 months, unfortunate they are too many people to thank and not all of them have instagram. They have held me up and let me cry on the shoulder when needed.
Day 13 (Courage) The courage still live, the courage to be me. The everyday courage is all it takes.
Day 14 (Wisdom) The only wisdom I have to pass is in the picture. Everyone keeps telling me how strong I am as a person, but I have no other choice.
Day 15 (Soul) Quiet the mind and the soul will speak.
Day 16 (Book) Being a book ‘nerd’ I could probably rattle off a lot of book names and why they having meaning to me. The reason this book is so special is because it was the first book after Ryker passed that I ‘got into’ and now has a little special place in my heart.
Day 17 (Fragrance) This little out fit still smells like Ryker, its kept hidden in his ‘Box’ so it doesnt lose his smell. My all time favourite fragrance in the world.
That’s all there is so far, but I’ll keep you all updated from now on.