So today I took a big step in my life, I decided to get my Diploma of Business Administration. I have decided to do the course online, and I even applied for my VET-FEE-HELP. You see being a chef just isn’t cutting it money wise. I work long hours (usually from 10am-10/11pm 5-6 days a week) with hardly any breaks and I get paid, to put it lightly, shit. I love being a chef, I have learnt so much but wanting to raise a family and be a chef, really is hard work, its long hours, all day manual work and next to no appreciation. So I decided I want change.
I’m starting to rethink a lot of things in my life, including my career, and to be honest it has a lot to do with Ryker. I know I will return to being a chef while I’m studying, I don’t have a choice. I have no experience in any other industry and no one wants to take on a newbie. I’m only studying for now, and it’s only going to take 8 months, but it’s a start in the right direction.
When I fell pregnant with Ryker I had come to the conclusion that I would be stuck being a chef for the rest of my life, and don’t take me wrong, I have lived and worked in the most beautiful places thanks to being a chef (I lived and worked on Daydream Island in the Whitsundays for 2 years of my life), I have meet the most crazy, inappropriate, nut head people that have the most interesting and explosive lives, and I am proud to say I am one of them. But I don’t see myself being a mother and a chef. It just doesn’t seem feasible. (I know women and men have done it before me, but this is my opinion.)
Just being pregnant and being a chef was hard enough. I mean being on your feet for 12/13 hour days then add on 2 hours for travel. It is a mission, and when you work your not on your bum all day, you are on your feet. There is no sit down for 5/10 minutes because your feet hurt. Then there is the cut’s and burn on you. The amount of people who have asked me if I ‘cut’ myself is colossal. So I thank Ryker for this. Because if it wasn’t for him, I wouldn’t of rethought my life. I wouldn’t have decided that if I want to be a parent, a parent that is there for at least some parts of my children’s life, I need to rethink my career.
Most people would say I am a career driven, money hungry woman. That statement was and most likely still is true. But I need a new career. I will forever have cooking and food as my passion. Because that is what it is. A passion, a love story, but we just need to be separated for a while. So while I will still be a chef in a year’s time, I will hopefully also have a Diploma of Business Administration to go along with it. So when Tim and I do decide to have more children, I will hopefully have a more time forgiving career.